Worried of What is Next?

With my son’s treatment going on (halo pelvic distraction), I often catch myself worry and think: What could happen next? Which treatment he would need after this? What if his spinal curves come back again? How can we keep and maintain the straight position of his spine?

I can’t really blame myself much for worrying this way. Especially with the history of his spinal curves and how his spine bends and curves so quickly and shortly.

But then I refer to the big perspective. Who is the real healer? Who is actually healing his spine? Who actually has got his cure, health and recovery? Can I really control or predict the future 100%?

After reflecting and processing privately, I realize we are so powerless and helpless in such a context. Whatever happens to us, we can’t control or manipulate. But what we can do is experience the event fully with all its ups and downs.

Going through a treatment, not knowing the outcome and not sure of the journey ahead. Struggling and facing it alone. Swallowing the pain and discomfort. Crying it all. Holding my son’s hands tightly and crying with him. And holding on to faith and belief that this also shall pass.

Practicing this way can somehow show us the truth in the situation and relief us from the burden and stress of the unnecessary overthinking and worrying.